Discovered Masturbation Early

Discovered Masturbation Early

I discovered masturbation at about age 5 - I called it peaking (don't no why tho, lol) I was playing like riding a horse on arm of rocker, rocking back and forth and WOW, the explosion of an orgasm totally SHOCKED ME!! I played that game all day long. Of the nights, while watching tv I'd go thru bedroom to go to bathroom, stop in bedroom and get on wooden rail and rock and get off too. Then in bed later, I'd use blanket between legs - lay on belly - use hands cupped and hunch and get off. I was raped when I was 14 and never had orgasms with penis, tho I luv for man to let me lay on stomach and masturbate with him watching. This one older guy would wait til I was ready to cum, then mount me from behind and put his huge penis right at my anus and shove down hard as I CAME - THAT was most incredible orgasm I ever had with a "man" and we did it a lot - and I'd blow him off for having sex with me that way and luved it. (alas, he went back to an ex-girlfriend) and I haven't got comfortable enough with a guy for that since). Just have to fantasize about him and get myself off by myself. I also luv to fantasize about a woman making love to and with me and get off - so maybe I need to find a lesbian, until whatever, I'll just get off by myself.