Fun and Enjoyment

My wife no longer desires in any form of sex so I must masturbate to help with my being horny. And due to diabetes I am not able to get an erection and have learned to do it with a hand held muscle massager. I find this to be very helpful and enjoyable and helps me to relax. It dosent take the place of sex but...... And I must say I love doing it and find it to be very sexy and good it sure helps to releve the tension and it sure feels good. Only you know what enjoyment you revieve from self pleasure