well, i am making it through another day without self-pleasuring, but it's getting tough. seems as if i am having major erotic thoughts once again, but trying to hold off and direct those feelings in another direction, one more creative and job-related.
in an earlier post, i noted how i am constantly 'aroused' with sexual feelings during this time of non-masturbation sessions. show me a picture of a woman with a drop dead body and I melt, wanting to immediately embark on a long self-pleasuring session.
or just anything that gives me a feeling of eroticism.
as i also noted, i am very irritable and short tempered sometimes and i think some of it is because of not having released some stress and tension through masturbation. maybe i should follow through with a good session, explore my body and eliminate some of this tension. but i really want to see how long i can hold off while, at the same time, build up arousal via photos of scantily-clad women, seeing good looking and well-built women in person or through other images.
we'll see. but i am making it through this day all right now. even if my lunch time was a test of willpower because i was at home and was looking through a magazine with women adorned in thongs and bikinis. dang, the curves they exhibited, it was almost too much to overcome. but i did it.