Trying to Self-Suck

When I was 17, I was determined to suck my own dick. I'd tried a few times before, but then, who hasn't? When I was much younger, a buddy and I tried to help each other by taking turns holding each other's legs and firmly pushing the other's back to help him stretch further, but our dicks were way too small then to even come close. That summer, however, I made it a goal. My family had moved a couple of years before that, so my old buddy was no longer around to help, but I was determined to do it on my own. My cock was only average-sized, but I was a lean lad, so if I were to ever reach it, it would be due to my limber body and not my gigantic cock. When I got horny (which was almost a constant state for me then), I would take off all my clothes, lie on my bed, and throw my legs over my head, bracing my feet against the wall. I would slip my arms between my legs so that the backs of my upper arms were braced against the backs of my thighs. Then I would pull with my arms and I would walk my feet down the wall, eventually able to walk them down behind the bed, almost to the floor. In a very short time, I got closer and closer, but for a week or two, actual contact between my mouth and my dick eluded me. One problem was that my dick was hard when I started, but during all the maneuvering and stretching, I'd lose my boner, which made it nearly impossible to reach no matter what. A good thing about the contorted position I chose was that it allowed me to grab my cock with my hand in order to guide it toward my mouth, though it worked a lot better when I was hard. When I got as close as I could, I would then work on restoring my boner, with limited degrees of success. I remember the day when I tried yet again and suddenly my tongue touched the tip of my cock. It turned me on so much that I was instantly hard, making it so I could easily lick the head. I'm circumcised, but, even hard, I could pull the loose skin up and then run my tongue between the skin and the head. I loved rolling my tongue around my cock like that. I still wanted to put the whole thing in my mouth and give myself a blow job, but I never quite achieved that feat. I did get to the point where I could put my lips on the head, but couldn't actually get it all in my mouth. Eventually I got so limber that I could just sit on my bed and lean forward and reach my cock without having to brace myself against the wall. I dreamed of having my friend back or another friend I could show this to, partly so he could get on the bed with me and help push on my back and to help me get even more of my cock in my mouth. But that never happened. I was never able to actually blow myself, but that summer I would lick the head and run my tongue around it, feeling hornier and hornier until I would finish myself off with my hand, shooting into my open mouth and on my face. I kept that up for most of that summer. I don't remember why I stopped. I guess it was when I left for college and no longer had the privacy required for such a feat, as I had to take my time when I jacked off this way. Fast forward to my mid-30's when I was determined to do it again. I spent time trying to work my way up to it, but I was never able to reach it again. And, boy, was my back sore for a few days from even attempting it. Alas, those days are behind me. I still have dreams, however, where I can easily get my whole cock in my mouth and blow myself. I always wish those dreams were true.