I've previously written about my friend and co-worker who I identify as 'C'
She's a friend and truly a nice, caring person. She has been helping me through some tough times, listening and offering encouragement and advice. As my gratitude for her kindness grows, so does my confusion and guilt. You see, I'm very attracted to her and have vivid masturbation fantasies about her. She does not have a 36-24-36 type body by any means, she's petite and small-chested. But, believe me, her body does more for me than any DD voluptuous vixen could do. I love her thin, athletic build (she's a former collegiate athlete) and her round, bubble butt.
The more times we chat openly on line with each other, the more I wonder how she would feel if she knew how much I masturbate fantasizing about her. She's a happily married mother of three children and, in my mind, the true epitomy of a MILF. I've known her for the better part of fifteen years, but it's only been during the last three years that my fantasies and masturbation sessions have bordered on obsessive. I instantly get hard just picturing her. I wish there were an easy way I could somehow let her know how she affects me and what I do when I think about her. I wish our friendship would not be hurt by my masturbation admissions and would instead be strengthened because of her knowing such a personal thing about me.
To continue as always with my friend or not, meaning revealing to her my secret. The answer might mean losing a good friend, I dread that so much. But the hope that I could someday masturbate for her or with her leaves me constantly stiff and needing immediate release. If you ever read this, you know who you are and you know who I am. Then, you would know I mean know harm, I'm just helplessly in lust with you 'C'.