Teaching Men to Receive Themselves

It's not a secret that many men have fantasies of swallowing their own semen. It's also not a secret that many of them are not interested once they have orgasmed and ejaculated. I have been curious about this for a long time; I noticed it first when men would not kiss me after I had given them a blowjob. Then a lover described the experience of masturbating to the fantasy of drinking himself, and how he could not do it once he had let go. That gave me deeper insight into what was going on. The next time we were having sex, I asked him if he was interested in drinking himself and he said that he was. I suggested that I might be able to help him out. I asked him to sit upright in a chair in my room. He was naked and very horny as we had been fucking for a while, but he had not ejacualted. I asked him to describe the feeling. He said that he was feeling full inside and wanted to orgasm and drink himself. I knew I had him in a delicate place. I prompted him to talk about what happens after he's cum. Now he was embarrassed; but he said he doesn't want himself. I could feel such deep empathy for him. I knew what he needed on a celluar level. I imagined the frustration of wanting himself over and over, and then not being able to complete his gift to himself. I imagined the frustration he must be carrying, the feeling of being incomplete. I told him that, and his only response was to groan. His cock was hard and beautiful, and his face had that look of exquisite, delicate agony. I knew he was close to spending his passion. I asked him whether I should be aggressive with him once he had ejaculated, that is, if I should push him to drink himself, or guide him firmly, and he said that would be OK. I could feel his thirst and his yearning, which felt...the word is spiritual. It felt so good to experience him in such a fragile and honest space. I encouraged him to be open about his desire to drink his semen. I sat on the floor and wrapped one arm around waist. He said, "I'm thirsty for myself," almost groaning. I knew it was soon time. I squatted up in front of him and licked my palm. I said, "I'll do this for you." He let go and I began to minister to his cock, which was fully erect and twitching and ready to release. I teased him toward the edge as slowly as I could. Then I felt him reach the point of no return. He relaxed and dopped into his climax and began to throb -- an enormous amout of semen for him; I know because I've drank many of his ejaculations. There was just so much. As he came, I felt the gorgeous pleasure, the thobbing following his moans as he spurted into my hand -- and I felt the desire to drink rush out of him. I don't know how that happened but I got the whole experience with full empathy. And there I was with a palm full of his semen, so much that it was spilling out of my hand. I kneeled up higher, and raised his hand to my nose and smelled his delicious grassy scent. "So good," I said and then said, "Here, this is your semen. Smell your semen. This is what you're going to receive. You need this." Suddenly the desire flushed into him again and I pressed his palm into his mouth. He resisted and received at once, in the way that women sometimes do, and then he had to swallow. I felt his lips close agasint my palm and I held his head and looked at his face as he gulped his whole ejacuation in one swallow. When he opened his eyes again, I licked his palm, intentionally showing him, and then I kissed his mouth deeply. Since that time, I've assisted many, many men cross that gap and receive themselves. It must be that I'm open to the subject, because men somehow open up about this (though I often guide the subject to masturbation, which in total fascinates me). Men, if you want to drink your seed, ask your lover to help you. She will understand. Admit to her exactly how you feel. Experience the humility of this. You're letting go a little of your 'conventional' masculinity and embracing something deeper in, something of your feminine side. For men who do not have a lover, I once read a technique for learning to receive yourself alone, which will give you deep and healing pleasure and help you complete something inside yourself. If you're one of those men who thirsts for himself, you will feel much better and experience the beauty of something inside you softening up. One thing you might do is, when you're full and hard, and thirsting, look into a mirror and tell yourself that. Your thirst for yourself is a form of love. The feeling of honesty of thirst, which is self-desire, which is love, is truly beautiful. You don't need to deny yourself. It's OK. I know what you want, and I want you to have it.