i have to make an admission and i find that this fantastic site is just the right place to do it.
i am a heterosexual male in his mid-50's. never been married. been engaged and been in several relationships, but because of my job demands--i am gone constantly and working at all hours of the day and night sometimes, probably cantankerous independence and enjoying doing my own thing, i have never been able to totally settle down. nor have i found a woman to put up with my admittedly self-centered ways. i say self-centered, but i am actually a very giving and loving person who enjoys doing things for other people. it's just that i love my own time and i love my independence. it's just the way i am.
because of that, i have always found that, when all is said and done, self-pleasuring is the best means of having a 'sexual' experience. i can have prolonged, intense, highly arousing solo sessions and come away with it knowing that I don't have to deal with the obligations and demands of an actual relationship. call me selfish and self-centered if you will, but i know myself better than anybody and this has always seemed to fit my lifestyle. i am high maintenance sexually and i have to get rid of some major 'horniess' so many times. i haven't found the woman yet who can put up with it or want to deal with it. granted, i haven't looked very hard at times for such a relationship because, again, i can be as independent as a lone cowboy wanting to ride off in the wild west and save the local town from the bad guys.
so right now, self-pleasuring sessions have become my total mode of sexual release. the last serious relationship i had was three years ago and it drove me absolutely batty. i couldn't figure out the woman, couldn't figure out why she would tease us needlessly or drag us on and then reached the point where i didn't care to deal with it. the 'games' department isn't my thing in a serious relationship. i take as much of the blame, too, because i didn't want to put enough time into the whole thing.
but i got to have a sexual release of some kind. i just have to.so with self-pleasuring, if I want an intense experience with my body, i can go through a quickie at lunch time, take my sweet time at other moments and then go on about my business. self-pleasuring is convenient, minus all of the complications that can go with a real relationship. it fits my lifestyle perfectly. i have come to find this out after all of these years because, invariably, i keep coming back to it for an intense, satisfying sexual fulfillment.
is there anyone else out there who has found that, because of various reasons, self-pleasuring is the best way to fulfill their sexual desires and needs?