I can't seem to stop masturbating. I'm always jacking off or fucking my pillows. It's funny sometimes looking at myself in the mirror or watching one of my filmed sessions from my webcam and seeing this grown ass black man humping a stack of pillows, sweating and moaning like a little bitch. I'm sure my neighbors can hear me sometimes.
I've recently got bored I guess and needed to try something new so I went out and bought a dick shaped black dildo with suction to stick it where you want. Normal size I guess. Been real horny lately and wanted to see what it would feel like to suck dick. The first couple of times I just suctioned it to my full length mirror and got on my knees naked and watched myself suck dick while jacking off. Busting a nut with a dick in my mouth was a new occasion.
I still like pussy but just wanted to know. I've even fucked myself in the ass a couple times to see how it would feel. I have a coworker that helps me with my loneliness. She always asks me to buy naked pictures of herself in any pose I want and I use those to jack off to. She also lets me buy her used panties sometimes. She knows I jack off to her pictures every morning before I go to work and see her and teases me sometimes. She also lets me buy her used panties after work if I ask nicely.
Sometimes during the day I will sneak to the bathroom and jack off real quick trying not to moan her name too loudly. Then go right back out and sit by her and have conversation. I'm convinced I fuck myself more than anyone in the world. And no one would think how pitiful I look when I'm alone jacking off to her, or humping my pillows, or playing with my dildo. I just want to know if anyone else thinks this is pathetic?