I have had a really powerful rape fantasy ever since I started to masturbate at the age of 12. Back then, I used to think of a teacher I thought was sexy. I used to imagine him pushing his hand into my trainer bra or onto my knickers. I would rub myself in bed at night imagining he was touching me up in class.
When I got to secondary school, this changed quite quickly. I would think about the same teacher, but this time he would be nasty with me. He would call me dirty names and would tear my tights off me before fucking me. IN my head, I was saying no no no, but I loved the orgasms my rape fantasy had. (I found out his home phone number by accident and I phoned him one night. As soon as he answered I started talking dirty to him and I jilled off before he put the phone down.)
My lastest fantasy involves me being followed home. As I walk from the station to my home I imagine there is someone behind me. It gets me wet almost immediately. I cut through a field and suddenly he is on me. (I throw myself onto the ground and rip my tights and knickers... then I masturbate to orgasm) I LOVE my rape fantasies.
In real life, I like being watched. I have masturbated and been seen for years. I love it.