This is a story about the repression I had from my fundamentalist father and my liberation from it by a girlfriend.
My father, a fundamentalist preacher, caught me masturbating in bed when I was 12. He was one of those fire and brimstone preachers who seemed to believe that any pleasure was sinful. I didn't realize what masturbation was then. I was lying face down on my bed with my fingers against my puss and rocking my hips in pleasure.
Father yelled at me, then made me strip and lie face down on his lap as he spanked my bare bottom repeatedly while preaching at me about the sins of the flesh. I never hated him more than I did that night. I still remember the feel of his hard cock against me as I lay there in that humiliating position.
It was two more years before I dared to touch myself again. After I turned 14, my parents finally would let me spend the night at a friends house. My first night with Margaret, who was also 14, she asked me as we were lying in her double bed if I'd ever masturbated. I blushed deeply and told her, 'not really.' I explained what had happened.
She told me that her mother had told her a very different story about it and had shown her how to do it. Then Margaret taught me by demonstration.
Then she told me to touch myself. I did so timidly. It felt good but nothing like what she seemed to have enjoyed. Then she put her hand on mine saying, 'rub yourself like this.' It took a little while before my fear diminished turning into pleasure, then yielding into a powerful orgasm. Margaret held me as I started coming, then kissed me. I kissed her back and sobbed with the release of all that ugliness my father had planted in me.
Margaret and I continued as lovers for two more years until I ran off with two seventeen year old guys to California.
Forty plus years later, I still enjoy masturbation. Thankfully, my wonderful experiences with Margaret completely freed me from the fearful grip my father had held over me. I've had an amazing sexual life in part from my early rebellion against his tyranny.
Thanks to Solo Touch for allowing us a place to share stories. I love spending a while reading here while gently masturbating, then going to my bed to finish off a wonderful session as I'm about to go do now!