At 15 it was the most embarrassing thing that could ever happen. It was about 20 years ago I remember it like it was yesterday. I now don't regret it.
At 15 I thought I was a bit abnormal because girls and masturbation were always on my mind.
My good friend Robby worked in the summer at his dad's video store in our town. Sometimes I would go with him to keep him company.
One day at the store he told me what was in the room at the back with the closed door that read restricted entry. He said that door was opened by key if an adult requested to go inside and there were videos of sex and naked women in there.
I could only think of how could I get my hands on those tapes. Robby said we could never sneak them home because his dad would find out.
About a week later after talking him into finding a way to get them we had it. While we were at the store Robby put up the back in 10 minutes sign. He ran and got two tapes then came back to the counter. We hooked two rental VCR's together and taped one to another on blank tapes we both paid for. That night we each took one and went home.
I was lucky enough to have my parents old vcr in my bedroom after they bought a new one.
The tape was perfect and it was my first exposure to porn. I made sure to lock my door. It was so great watching with huge eyes as two girls licked each others tits and pussies. I must have cum five times that night before going to sleep reversing back to my favorite spots over and over.
Each time we were at the store we did the same thing until our collection was about 10 tapes each. I wrote labels on them of uninteresting movies as if I had recorded them from TV. The tapes then sat in plain sight and no questions would be asked so I thought.
One of my favorite videos was more of a interview of real live ladies, seven of them. They sat in front of the camera with clothes on telling the story of how they discovered masturbation and how they do it and how often. Then after the story they would strip and masturbate for the camera. This was the most thrilling thing that I had ever seen or heard in my life. I would sit with my door locked at night (or if the house was vacant) with one earphone on so I could hear if some one came close. I had a jar of vaseline that I kept hidden away. I would lube my cock to stroke it and watch that one video so many times.
Then one day when I had the house to myself I had an idea. I grabbed my parents video recorder and hooked it to my vcr. I figured out how I could record live to my tape in my vcr. I then added my own story to the end of the ladies masturbation tape.
I sat there telling my story of how I learned to jerk off, how I had jerked off with my buddy watching me once so he could learn, about riding my bike to the park stripping nude then jerking off in broad daylight hoping I would get caught. I also told about how I would jerk off at the window in my room while watching the hot girl next door by the pool. She was there for two weeks each summer while she visited her grandparents.
Then I stripped and said I am now going to show you how I masturbate. I did not use the words jerk off because the girls on the video called it masturbation.
I lubbed my cock and stroked for the camera for about 20 minutes. Then I said it's time for orgasm just like one of the girls did. I squirted large amounts of cum and then said thank you for watching and turned it off.
I watched my own jerking video often because for some reason it really turned me on.
Then came the day my videos went missing!
I was out and when I came home and to my room they were not there. Fear came over me. I went downstairs and sheepishly asked my mom if she knew anything about the missing tapes. Oh yah she said. The lady next door asked if we had any movies because her grand daughter was coming to stay. She had given her what she thought was my old movies along with my old video games and game player. She had given her some of my porn stash with the masturbation tape of me too! I said ok and went outside shaking badly.
I looked next door and saw a strange car knowing it was the parents of Tina and she must be there. It was her. The girl by the pool that I would jerk off to while watching from my window. She was about 18 at the time. Me being 15 felt like light years apart and I could not even talk to a girl that old.
I was doomed. All I could do is pray that the tapes were never watched. After all who wants to watch old movies recorded from TV?
I went to bed that night and did not even want to jerk off. I felt so bad that everyone may see my jerk off tape and then I had a thought. I had nothing too much to worry about because if they put in the tape sure I would get busted for my porn stash but they would never watch it to the end where myself taped jerking off was.
So I felt a bit better, jerked off as usual and went to sleep.
Two days passed of me sweating about the tapes. In the afternoon I saw Tina there by the pool tanning. I thought about going to my room now to watch her through my window and masturbate. As I walked to the back door she called over to me. I was shocked and thrilled. She stood up and came to the fence. I had never spoken to her before other than when we were introduced a few summers before.
I went a bit closer and she said it's ok it's just me here today. I was not sure what she was talking about so I said what do you mean. She said nobody is watching the movies. Oh no I thought, but said nothing. She then said you're a bad one aren't you? I just said no but was so embarrassed.
She then said nobody has seen your porn collection so stop worrying. Only I have watched it. Boy my heart popped from my chest! I could hardly speak and only said can I have them back please. Sure she said. I'll get them for you. As bad as it was it was over.
Tina came back and said here you are, you can have fun again. As she was handing me the box she said you look pretty tanned on the tape. I stopped just short of dying and said I can explain. She said I already heard you explain. She then said, so I guess I'll see you at the window? She then smartly asked which window is your room? Then laughed. I grabbed my stash and walked in the house.
I was so embarrassed that I thought I would never look at her again. As I went to my room I peeked out to see if she was still there. She was by the pool with her head tilted my way. As soon as I got to the window she gave a very small wave as if to say I know you are there. After just a moment Tina got up and turned toward my house. She looked around and then back to my window where I know she could now see me. She went to the coner of the house and then pulled down her bikini top to show me her pointy little tits. It was just a moment and then she went inside the house.
That was my first set of tits I saw in real life and the sight was better than my videos for jerking off for about three months.
I never went back to talk to Tina again while she was there and she did not come back the next year. I did watch her by the pool while I masturbated twice more but I don't think she saw me.
Thinking back now and believe I could have had a fun week with a girl like that had I not been so shy.
My thoughts since have been many dreams of what may have happened. I now think of how she must have liked my jerk off video and also that she must have been interested in the girls too or she would not have got as far as the end of that tape where she watched me masturbate.