My first but, hopefully, not last time with a girl. I live in England but, unfortunately, most girls on this site are from America. Help please.
I am a very shy person. I use the Internet to look at this site when I am alone, when I read stories of being with other girls it excites me and I start to slowly touch myself.
Two days ago I was invited to my friend Natasha's apartment for lunch. She said she was feeling lonely since her brother went back to Poland and that she had no close friends. We were just talking and having a great time when all of a sudden she started to cry and speak about how lonely she was since her brother left. I put my arm around her and gently squezed her shoulder, not in a sexual way, but just as a friend.
We stayed like this until she stopped sobbing and her hand gently hugged me partially touching my breast. Although I was beginning to get aroused by this emotion I assumed she only meant a re-assuring hug.
We stayed like this for what seemed like hours, but was only minutes. I now started to stroke her hair. My hand gradually worked down her neck and before I realized what was happening I was gently rubbing her breasts. She gave a soft moan and we started to kiss. It seemed so natural, nothing planned, just like the Solo Touch stories I'd grown to love.
I broke away, feeling a bit embaressed, but she pulled me towards her. As our lips met I felt a burning desire to explore Natasha's body. My hand drifted down the inside of her thigh and her legs slowly parted. I unbuttoned her jeans and slipped them under her feet. As my hands worked up from her knees to her pants I remembered the stories I had read
and dreamed about. This was now happening to me. In a frenzed matter of minutes we were lying naked together. We stopped and looked into each others eyes, yes this was real passion. Natasha gently rubbed my clit and I moved my hips in time with her. She turned towards a 69 position and I started to rub her. We started to finger ourselves, we were both so wet. For that 20 minutes we were joined together like no man and woman can be. It was sheer bliss. Natasha came first. Her whole body convulsed and twitched as her orgasm passed through her. When she eventually calmed down she concentrated on me. She instinctivly knew where to touch and how much pressure to apply, it was like heaven. Like only a woman knows, we both felt my orgasm approaching. My body coiled fractions of seconds before I exploded with release.
I have had sex with men, but the time I spent with my Polish girl friend was utterly amazing. She has since left England to go back with her family. I am now looking for a new girl friend, but I am too shy to ask. I now know that I am a lesbian, but my friends would laugh and treat me bad if they knew. How can I find happiness again as I shared with Natasha. I play with myself two or three times a day thinking of her. How can I meet anyone who has like minded views? I am very confused.