A sad, but true tale of my personal experiences, dating back to the sixth grade.
I started puberty in the sixth grade, growing hair and getting erections. All that rot. Anyhow, I have a cousin. He's ten days older than me. We would stay up late at my grandmother's house and watch movies.
It was around the time we were twelve when he brought up the term 'jacking off'. I had only a vague idea of what he meant when he asked me if I did. I can barely remember, but he showed me and we would regularily sit upstairs at my grandmother's, late at night, and masturbate.
We went on like this, masturbating in plain view of one another, but we never did it to orgasm, as we didn't know that we could. It was all lollipops and unicorns, until he asked me if he could touch my penis, to which I said no several times (can you believe it?), until I gave in. He climbed into the recliner that I was sitting in, and started to fondle me for a minute. I didn't do anything to him, that night.
We became more daring over the weeks and started to mutually masturbate. This went on for several months until he brought me and two of our younger cousins (ten at the time, I believe) out to our clubhouse. He then mutually masturbated with them in a sort of twisted initiation. I had no part in this, though, until one night, he and the older of our other two cousins was over and we played truth or dare. We ended up mutually masturbating with each other, as I was bound by the rules of truth or dare.
It wasn't long after all of this when my older cousin was ratted out for all this, and my name was mentioned as well. My mother received a call from someone. I was asked questions, which I answered tearfully and honestly. I had to apologise to one of my cousins. I was also forbidden to be alone with my older cousin.
But that is all long past. Since then, my older cousin and I have started back and my younger cousin, now thirteen or fourteen, has started to do this with us by his own accord, and I sometimes find myself, against my better judgment masturbating with one or both of them, even though I would rather be with someone I can do these things with and it be meaningful.
In writing this, I hope that I have helped someone who may have had a similar experience.