My First Time.....Again

The time was about 7.30 am and I was soon due to go to bible college for lectures; I was doing a degree in theology. I filled in the time before leaving by looking for info about masturbation for a friend who was unmarried; he was masturbating and feeling guilty. As I scrolled down the page I saw a link advertising "Ejaculation Pictures". Curious, I opened it, and there was a photo of a penis ejaculating. I have to say that the photo was absolutely fantastic and it blew me away. The camera caught the first rope of jizz bursting into the light of day, and the end of the semen stream was several inches away from the head of the cock, and would have been still moving outwards after the photo was snapped. It was a truly magnificent picture. I was instantly captivated, mesmerised, by this photo. I had never seen anything like it. And I was overcome by a sexual arousal that was so powerful it shook me. I felt that delicious feeling of tingling and stirring in my balls, but much stronger than I could remember; my stomach tensed; my whole body trembled; and I knew that after 40 years of not doing it out of consideration for my wife, I was going to masturbate. But I had to go to college. So, reluctantly, I got into my car and left home. All the way to college I was trembling and my balls felt so nice and my cock was making its presence felt - aaahhh, such tension, such delight. I sat through lectures unaware of what was being said as I kept that magnificent picture in my mind - or should I say that the picture wouldn't leave my mind. I sat at my desk still trembling, still with that sense of urgency; feverish, distracted. I now well understand why sexual desire is called "the red mist". When it descends on you there is no denying it; it demands to be obeyed, and we become its willing servants. What delight! Well, lectures were finally over and the class broke for lunch. But I had other plans and an appointment to keep. I almost ran to my car I was feeling so desperate, and headed for home. Fortunately the traffic wasn't too bad otherwise I might have barged through every obstacle and left a heap of wrecked cars in my wake. Once home I raced to the bedroom, removed my jeans and jocks, and started stroking. But in spite of my frantic feelings I stroked my cock lovingly and savoured every stroke, every second, every feeling. The feeling was so intense, delicious, heady; and this, coupled with the fact that I had not masturbated for 40 years, and the "forbidden-ness" of it, ensured I couldn't last long. And before long it blew! Ah, what relief, what joy. I watched my cream erupt into a nice clean handkerchief. And then, sadly, all too soon, it was over. I lay there savouring the wonderful feelings I was experiencing for a while - but it was over. I put the hanky into the wash basket and put my jeans back on and had lunch. But a couple of hours later the red mist descended again and I had another go. This time the ejaculation was even more intense and more satisfying. Sweet joy! I didn't tell my wife as she wouldn't have approved. But the next day, after she had gone to work and I had no lectures to go to, I masturbated again. And I've been doing it ever since. However because of my Christian background I've had to re-visit the issue of masturbation. Over the years I've become convinced that God doesn't have an issue with it as there is nothing in the bible that forbids or condemns it; in fact there is actually a verse which condones male masturbation (Leviticus 15:16); and while female masturbation isn't mentioned as far as I can see, it too must surely be OK with God.