I have been a porn freak my entire life - well since I got a computer and had a variety of accesses to it. I was so confused about my sexuality and sex period. However, I finally met a guy that I really cared about - not only that but he was one of the first guys to make me 'hot and bothered' as my mother would say.
I was mostly attracted to girls before I met him. I got a lot of teasing for it but I didn't care. I had a good reason not to care - I had a big butch lesbian that liked me and protected me whenever I needed it. Even today, though she has graduated, she does her best to protect me but that's a different story.
One day he came over while my parents were at work. We were sitting on my bed watching a movie. The movie started to get sexually intense, and I was starting to feel awkward. He looked towards me, and I could feel his eyes penetrating my right cheek. My whole face became flushed when the girl removed her top. But I soon realized I was the only one watching the movie - he was watching me.
This new knowledge made my face lighten up even more. I started looking like a Christmas tree. I turned off the television because I was getting really uncomfortable. 'Hey I was watching that!' he yelled.
I squinted my eyes at him and said, 'No you weren't; you were watching me!'
He told me he didn't care, and we wrestled for the remote, which he won. After retrieving the remote he then decided he didn't want to watch the movie, he wanted to watch something else. My computer was always on and, he being a computer genius, knew exactly where to look for what he wanted.
'Bingo! Candy's got a dominatrix fetish!' If I hadn't thought my face could get any redder, it did! 'So, you like dominating men do ya?' he smiled. He then whispered in my ear, 'Have you even seen a real cock? One that isn't on that little box of yours?'
I shook my head 'no' because I found out I had lost the ability of speech early on during the movie.
'Do you want to see mine?'
I nodded, but turned my head.
He laughed, 'I don't think you'll be able to see it if you turn your head like that.'
I turned back around, and he had it out. I was about to die of excitement. I reached out and touched it. I asked him if it hurt. He smiled, 'No, it doesn't. You want to see something cool?'
I nodded and he said, 'You see, there are muscles in the hips and they also go down to the cock so I can make it move.'
I watched and he made it twitch! I didn't know whether to laugh or run.
'You want to help me?'
I wasn't stupid but I had always thought playing the stupid type was kind of kinky. 'Do what?'
He smiled, knowing I was doing it on purpose. He also knew that I loved to watch those guys in porno jerk off.
Something about masturbation always thrilled me - not anything else. I even to this day don't know what it is about masturbation that thrills me so much.
'Will you jerk me off? Please?'
I smiled, 'You know I've never done it before; what if I hurt you?'
He took my hand and guided it to his really hard silky soft skinned penis. 'I?ll teach you?'
His hand guided mine we moved up and down, slow at first and then it speeded up. He stopped me midway and said, 'You know, I am getting a lot out of this but you are just standing there. How about you join me?'
No man or boy, besides the ones related to me and seen me when I was a baby had seen me naked. I wouldn't even get naked for my doctor! 'Ok - it?s not pretty though?' I had very low self-esteem due to the scars I had on my stomach from my gall bladder being taken out.
'I love your stomach - don't ever be ashamed of what you've lived through.'
It was weird how it felt like he could read my mind. I took off my shirt, and he helped me with my bra. For a minute, he just stared at my chest. 'There isn't that much to stare at you know,' I said.
He smiled and kissed me. 'Yes there is. You see these? These are breasts, you know. That is something guys like to stare at - or are you turning into that friend of yours who wants to be a guy?'
We shared a laugh. He started to unbutton my shorts, and I inhaled deeply. When they were off, he laughed, 'Pink panther underwear? So original!'
I hit him and said, 'That's it! I'm leaving!'
He grabbed me and kissed my cheek. 'I'm sorry - I just wasn't expecting little girly underwear on someone like you.'
I blushed and said, 'Well, they are comfortable!' Before I knew it, he had them off me.
'Comfortable but you don't need them!' He kissed each of my very hard nipples.
'You do know they aren't hard because of you - I'm cold.'
He smiled; we always teased each other like that. 'Yeah, and my hard cock isn't because of you either. I'm just cold.' We both shared a laugh. He then took my hand and helped me out for a couple more minutes before he took his hand away and started pumping his fingers in and out of me.
I exploded several times - he did once but, when he did, it went everywhere!
He had it on his stomach, on my bed, on the TV, in my hair! It was everywhere. I bent down and licked some off his stomach. 'Tastes weird but not bad.' He smiled at me, and we got to cleaning up the mess we had made.