Even when we are together, my gf and I masturbate so we can watch each other and ourselves in a large mirror. We discovered that masturbation is the ultimate self love, even though it pleases the other to watch, it is intensely private. She observes the way I grip and caress and tweak my penis as I experience the complete range of intense sexual feelings. Watching her do the same, fingering around her vagina, occasionally rubbing directly on her clit, altering her pace so as to preserve every moment of her submersion into sex.
I can't control my orgasm during intercourse as I can during masturbation. 'Edging' is so intense that I have come to realize they are moments of the most exquisite self love. I guess that's why she likes to watch. 'You're holding off, aren't you. I can tell.' Meanwhile, she can bring herself to orgasm several times, totally absorbed in her sexual feelings. When she reaches a lull she simply sits back and, while continuing to caress herself gently, she tells me she wants to see me cum. That's the moment I'd been waiting for. I openly display my most powerful sexual moments, realizing she is studying every move, every sound, I make. When cumming I often look her in the eye and tell her how much I love my cock-and love her to watch me when I make love to myself.