I think I knew I was gay when I was 13. I never felt attracted to girls, but guys... WOW! My masturbatory fantasies are always about guys, but I am very shy and would never approach anyone - even if I knew they were gay.
But, there is a guy I know. He lives two doors down from me and is something of an electronics geek, sonmething else that fascinates me. OK he IS older, but don't think for a minute that he is some kind of pervert. He isn't.
I was talking to him recently and he asked me if I had a girlfriend. I think I gave it away by the way I answered him. He just smiled and said 'I know it's tough, being gay and shy, not a good combination.' In that moment I knew he was too. He sat down and started to talk. He told me about his teenage years, of wanting to get off with another boy but never daring to make the first move. He told me that he didn't have his first orgasm with another guy until he was in his late 20s! I said, 'I don't know what I want to do with a guy, I mean I don't know if I want to, you know, do him, or him to do me, I think I just want a guy to make me cum, at first, anyway.'
So, quite sweetly he said 'Well, Michael, if you want, I will.' And it seemed so right. I let him cuddle me and I got so fast it almost hurt. He didn't make a single move to go further, so I got my cock out, took his hand and wrapped his fingers around it. He just said 'Say stop whenever you want.' As if!!! And he started to jack me. Oh shit, it was wonderful. I felt my orgasm coming like it was a mile away and walking slowly. It took an age to build to the point that I knew I was gonna shoot. When I did, it went on forever! He stroked the last drop out of me and I didn't even care where it went. (It turned out I had cum all over his legs.)
Then I wanted to make him cum and I asked him. He seemed reluctant, but soon I had my fingers around his cock which was bigger than mine, longer and fatter. He just let me do what felt right. Then he said 'I'm going to cum'. I lifted my t shirt and directed his spunk onto my tummy.
That was all we did but it was a great way to find out that I really DO like guys in that way.
Oh, I tried to do it again with him, and do more besides, but he told me that I needed someone my own age and not him. I know he wanted more from me, and I admire his restraint because I would sure as shit have done more with him.