Growing up and in school, I heard people talking about 'masturbation' or read about it in books, but I never really understood it. I could imagine what guys would do, but for girls, I just didn't get it. Was I supposed to find something to stick inside myself? It kind of creeped me out.
Well, I was raised in a pretty conservative house where I wasn't allowed to date. But I was a pretty good kid and just went along with the rules. No one I knew talked about sexual topics much, so I didn't think too much about what I was 'missing.'
Then, when I was in college and finally had a boyfriend, we progressed to make-out sessions that involved deep kissing and taking off shirts. We would lay on his bed and kiss, but keep our pants on. I noticed that when I laid on top of him when we were kissing, if I kind of rubbed my crotch on his leg, it felt good. It actually made me breathe fast and my head felt a little spinny, so then I would stop because I didn't understand the feeling.
One night, I went home to my apartment and was still feeling pretty turned on. So I decided to try and recreate that feeling I had before. I laid on my stomach on the couch with one leg on the couch and one leg on the floor. Then I put my arm up under my face and started kissing my arm, pretending to be kissing my boyfriend. I still had my jeans on, and I rubbed up and down on the edge of the couch. I could feel myself getting really wet, my panties were soaking! It felt so good that I just kept rubbing back and forth. I didn't really have an orgasm, but I knew I was on the verge.
My boyfriend and I broke up not long after that, but that was ok with me, since I had discovered this great new hobby! I started reading some sites about masturbation techniques and, well, practiced a lot with lots of happy results!
Sometimes I feel like I missed out on a lot of 'jilling' opportunities by waiting for so long to get started. Guess I'll have to make up for lost time now.