How I Came to Think of Myself as Autosexual

As I mentioned in my first story, masturbation is real sex for me, not a substitute activity for when I don't have a partner. In fact, it's my preferred way of having sex above all others, but it took my a while to figure that out. I had been having satisfying masturbation sessions with orgasms for years before I started dating my first boyfriend at the age of 14. I had orgasms with him easily from phone sex, but I couldn't relax enough to do so in person with him through mutual masturbation, him giving me a hand job, oral, or intercourse. We were together for 2 years, and I figured that I would just need to get older and more mature before I began to prefer sex with a partner over masturbating. When I was 18, I had my first orgasms through someone else's manual stimulation, oral sex, and my masturbating in his presence. He was my third partner altogether and the second one I had intercourse with, and there was still no orgasm from intercourse, but I enjoyed how my orgasms came about through those other ways. Sex with a partner was starting to make sense for me. When I masturbated alone, I would replay scenes from our times together, and the fantasies really enhanced my sessions with myself. Finally, at the age of 23, I began to have orgasms through intercourse. It was with a boyfriend who was also very good at oral sex and hand jobs. Even though this was the first time that intercourse started to feel really good for me, we didn't treat it as a sex act that was any better or more real than oral or manual stimulation. He probably gave me most of the orgasms I had with him with his fingers, with his mouth being a close second. Because I was orgasmic with him in every possible way, I thought that this was the culmination of my transformation from being childishly masturbation focused to being mature in my ability to desire sex with another person above all else. I enjoyed sex with this guy. I really, really enjoyed it. But I had to admit that my own masturbation was even better. This was a real turning point for me. I started to accept then that despite how much I could enjoy being with another person, I would never prefer it over having sex with myself. Since then, I've been with other guys who were really good at giving me pleasure. There was absolutely nothing wrong with them or their techniques. As an autosexual person, however, I would always favor masturbating over anything else. My most recent boyfriend was someone who knew about my autosexuality and accepted it. It was a bonus that he liked for me to give him masturbation shows, so most of our sex together was him watching me have sex with myself. I don't fantasize about doing anything with another person when I masturbate these days, because nothing is more arousing to me than the reality of my own masturbation as I'm doing it.