Fun with Alice

My first year in L.A. I met an absolutely gorgeous girl named Alice. I was 21 and she was 23. She was about 5'6 with dark red hair, very petite, and had a face pretty enough to be a model. I am probably slightly above average in looks, and a pretty confident guy, but I can unequivocally say that she was way too hot to be dating me. Only having several partners before her, she is really the person that taught me most about sexuality and masturbation. Up to that point I had never been in a relationship were I could be completely honest with my partner about what I liked and wanted. I also still have never had a partner with such a strong sex drive. Ironically, we were not the best fit sexually, as I am a little more hung than your average guy and she was a little smaller and much tighter than your average girl. As a result we could not have sex without her being in significant pain, and with her not being crazy about oral sex, we would use masturbation as means to combat our more than healthy sex drives. For a couple in our early twenties it was an awkward situation not being able to have sex with your partner, especially for a couple as sex starved as we were. Mutual masturbation just became the logical solution given our limited options, and where we started out exclusively masturbating each other, after a few times I found my hand naturally gravitating toward myself at the mere sight of her naked. Initially I tried to resist masturbating myself in front of her, but it very quickly became too hard of a choir, and I found myself freely stoking my penis without even realizing it. Although it was pretty obviously that I had some experience jerking off, up to that point I had never even admitted to anyone that I masturbated and I had always felt guilty about my daily masturbation sessions. I was completely aware that most people masturbated, but at that point in my life I still felt societies stigma of masturbation as being something that was taboo. So when Alice and I first started masturbating in front of each other, we both felt extremely nervous and there was hesitation from us both when doing anything even slightly different from the previous time. Over time we slowly we started sharing new things with each other that we previously had only done when masturbating alone. Fearing that the other person would think it was weird, there was an incredible feeling of vulnerability in anticipation to the other persons reaction when exposing something new. However, the vulnerability allowed us to share moments of intimacy that felt more intense than having sex. With a sex drive that I could hardly control within a couple of weeks I progressed from masturbating in front of someone for the first time, to showing her how I would pour baby oil on myself as lubrication when masturbating. With Alice it was a scary yet exhilarating experience to share these extremely private acts that we mostly keep hidden from the rest of the world. Furthermore, to jerk off and cum in front of any girl would have been an exhilarating rush, but Alice was amazingly beautiful, and I remember getting a euphoric high at just the thought of how I had just masturbated while such a beautiful girl was present and watching. The more we masturbated in front of each other the bolder we got and we slowly increased our comfort level. We would share little techniques and fetishes, and showed each other different things that we did and liked. She would use different toys and vibrators in front of me. She would tell me what she liked to think about, what celebrities she had masturbated to, and even showed me how she sometimes used a hand held mirror so that she could look at her pussy while masturbating. I would try a variety of lubricants and warming oils, and she would curiously watch my reaction as she helped to applied them while asking me how they felt and the differences. We became so comfortable that she even gave me a handjob one time while she was brushing her teeth. We also began to tease and play games during our masturbation sessions. I think we both were afraid that with the absence of sex the other person would eventually get bored with just masturbation, so we both seemed motivated to satisfy each other and try new ways to keep it exciting. We played games to see how much we turn each other on before we absolutely needed to cum. She would hold her vibrating toys to my genitals until I begged her to let me stroke myself, and I would have her put a vibrator in her pussy and leave it buzzing while we watched an entire TV show. We would get naked and look through sex toy catalogs together to order new toys and lubricants (one of my favorite things was watching her try a new toy out for the very first time). Even on the days we were not together, she would call me at work to have phone sex. While our bodies may have been incompatibly and although we both missed having sex, our sexual compatibility was explosive, and our relationship was so fun and exciting. She took me to new sexual highs, and made mutual masturbation an extremely satisfying main course. After one of the first times that we ordered from a sex toy catalog it came with a free DVD called "Rain Women 13". It was then that I learned that she was also a visual person and enjoyed watching porn, even having a small collection of her own. After that we agreed to show each other our porn collections exposing some of our most private fetishes. Although it was pretty embarrassing to show her my collection which included such titles as -Please cum on my pussy- and -Chubby Girls 5-, she thought it was funny and wanted me to show her which scenes I liked the best. We would spend entire afternoons naked on her bed while watching each others porn collections and nonchalantly masturbating throughout the day. Being a bisexual she really liked my videos of girls masturbating I admitted that I bought several of them when we first started dating because they had girls that looked similar to her. This made her intrigued and she admitted she liked the idea of masturbating for me on camera. After dating for about six months she went home to the East Coast on vacation and when she returned she gave me one of the hottest gifts of my life. While at home she had used her mom's video recorder to make a video for me. She placed the video recorder at the end of her bed and masturbated for me on camera. I had watched her masturbate hundreds of times before but this time was different. She was nervous and excited, like the first time I watched her. She got so worked up in anticipation of masturbating for me on camera that she was noticeable wet. She looked surprised when she realized how wet she was and looked at the camera and asked Do you see what you are doing to me? It was so empowering to watch her body having physical reaction in response to thinking about me. Seeing her start to drip as she rubbed her fingers into her pussy, I remember thinking that those drips were either because of me, or for me. That video was amazingly hot and something I still think about. What made it even hotter is that she loved to watch me masturbate to her video, and would even masturbate with me while watching herself. I had a favorite part where I liked to cum and she would control the remote so it would be playing right as I climaxed. I literally watched that video for six months straight, and masturbated to it every day. We dated about a year and it was one of the most transformative years of my life. She taught me so much about love, women, and sexuality. Not being able to have sex with her was both a curse and a blessing, but I learned so much about my own sexuality and desires from her, and learned more about intimacy from her than from anyone else. I still enjoy thinking about all the different things we did, and ways we did it. Although we did not make it as a couple, I often look at that relationship as my first adult relationship and I am grateful for the year that we had.