Post high school life
In high school I was pretty much a loser and a loner. I was smart but not one of the nerds. I liked sports but was too small to make any team. As far as dating girls went, I struck out the only two times I tried. I would fantasize about some of the hot girls as they would rule the world of high school. I used their pictures in the yearbook a lot for jerking off.
Eventually I went on to college and got an engineering degree. Still no luck with the ladies. Being small didn’t help. I am 5’5” and a bit pudgy. Even my penis is small at 4+ inches. I tried a few times but for some reason always got rejected. I resigned myself to a life of masturbation.
Fast forward to when I’m 29, living in a town by myself a few towns away from where I grew up and I run into one of those old hot girls from high school. She was getting take out Chinese food as was I. I didn’t think she even knew my name but she did. She said “Hi Jimmy, how you doing? Long time no see”. I was shocked but we started talking and she kept the conversations going.
She basically asked me out on a date! Of course I said sure. Turns out she decided to turn her life around. No more fast times, no more dating bad boys, she wanted to straighten things out and settle down. She found religion she said. She liked my situation and future. I was making good money and even had a house. We started dating.
Now since she turned her life around, dating meant no sex. When I tried she smiled and pushed my hands away saying “I’m not that kind of girl any more”. I didn’t mind that much since I loved being around her. Of course the masturbation continued. After each date my dick was aching from kissing her, touching her soft skin and the smell of her wonderful perfume. One day I told her we better end the date early. When she asked why I pointed down to my dick and said it’s too hard, I can’t stand it.
She laughed and said “I guess I’ve been a bit too strict. Take that out and I’ll do it for you”. I was in heaven. She looked at my penis and said “It’s so cute”. Which was code for “It’s so small”. She ran her hand up and down no more than three or four times when I shot.
Our dates were always the same. Dinner, movies and a handjob. We went to church activities together too. I was thinking I can’t believe she’s done everything with guys but I only get a handjob. Even her bare boobs were off limit. After six months she said she thought it was time we went to the next level. Turns out the next level was me eating her pussy and then her jerking me off. I asked why we can’t have intercourse. She told me “I want to save that for marriage”.
I did ask her to marry me and we got married. On the honeymoon we had intercourse. She never came or even seemed excited. We would basically have sex once or twice a month. I would get one handjob every Saturday. It was crazy. Later on I found out she was having an affair. We divorced and I’m still looking for a girl I can love. She went on and married one of the bad boys from high school. I guess a tiger never changes its stripes.