I Wish I Knew Then What I Know Now

My earliest attempts at sex involved mutual masturbation or even dry-humping. My goal was to get off as in my mind I thought my partner would somehow stop me from cumming. It was quick just so I could get the sensations for me. I had my cock in my hand for most of my youth and I came several times a day for many years. When I met a girl in high school that gave incredible hand jobs, I couldn't get enough of her. She would get me off better than I could and often several times per night. I was so dumb about it, I cannot remember a time when I got her off although I knew she was aroused. I played with her pussy which she liked and touched her breasts a lot, yet I don't think I ever gave her the ultimate pleasure. Oh well, I made up for that about 10 years later when we fucked and I got her off.

Finally in college, I met a young woman who insisted I get her off with my hands and mouth before she got me off with her hands. She wanted to remain a virgin and had wonderful breasts so I played with her for hours (yes it was hours usually in the back seat of my car). She would get very wet, but I still had no idea what I was doing. I just touched her where I could tell she liked it and got her off really by accident. I had not idea about a clit. We slept together one night in my dorm room and she woke me up several times during the night so I could please her pussy.

It wasn't until I was in my 40's that I met a woman who experimented with me with all forms of sex. I did not know that women masturbated! She loved to watch me jerk off and I could not get enough of watching her make herself cum with her hand. So when I married for a second time, I introduced my new wife to mutual masturbation. She had a perfect body and, like me, also loved to masturbate. Mutual jacking and jilling was new to her as well so we did it together once or twice a week. We had sex every day until the children were born. After kids, sex was usually quicker than before with me often cumming on her breasts while getting her off with my hands or watching her get herself off. There was still much intercourse, but also a lot of mutual masturbation. I made it more interesting by getting her a rabbit so she could really fuck herself and vibrate her clit to orgasm. My memories of her (I loved to fuck her pussy too) are often of her masturbating in the car, standing up watching me jerk off or telling me how much she loved watching me jack off for her. The sex was easy and it could happen at any time. I finally found women who clearly enjoyed sex.

Amazingly, women in their 50's are extremely exciting to me now because they respond to almost any stimulation and like to be licked, fucked, fingered and be spontaneous and even masturbate for me. I wish I knew all of this when I was younger. I would give anything now to have been aware of female sexual response and I fantasize about my girlfriends masturbating with me or for me. They must have been just as horny as I was back then. If I didn't get them off because I had no idea what I was doing, I am fairly certain they masturbated after our dates. I must have done some things well, because they did come back for more!

These days I just have fantasies as I have no partner. Internet porn is saving my life. I would love to find a female friend to get off with in any way they like and maybe that will happen soon. I know what I am doing now.