I Wish

I wish we could talk like the adult friends we are. I wish we could talk about masturbation openly and not be ashamed. I wish I had brought it up in a different manner judging from your reaction. I wish I could ask you so much. How old were you when you first masturbated? How often do you masturbate now? Do you use your fingers or do you have a vibrator? When we first started working together and you were single, did you masturbate a lot? Who do you fantasize about when you masturbate? I wish you could answer all my questions and not feel guilty or ashamed...