Closer and Closer To the Max

I masturbate everyday at night from either reading Solo Touch or watch porn on my phone. But I've been having some issues reaching climax. I am truly jealous of all of the women cumming and shaking violently with their orgasms. I rub and rub and I do cum a little but not like in porn when the stars cum is white and thick pouring out of her tired pussy. I don't get feel the obligation to moan or groan; it's just I crave satisfaction so I rub and feed in but then... The urge is gone. Just like that, no massive squitting or cumming, no noises, no arching of the back.

But I'm getting closer I think. When I've gone to the bathroom for the past few days, I've noticed that when I look done, if I contract my pussy, two long thick rain/tear drops of white cum are dripping down. I can't feel it but I can definitely see it!

I am DETERMINED TO reach the ''Big O'' soon. Another problem is, though, I can't seem to locate my clit. I mean I think I have one and (from porn) know where it is and it's sensitive but... Not to where it feels good paticularly. Hmm. Guess I just have to be patient.

I have a long distance friend coming over next weekend who I've known for five years now and I really do love her. We are BEST friends(: and we just so happened to have exchanged confessions of dirty masturbation and lesbianism. Well more like Bi-sexual for me, same for her I believe. Still, I'm hoping I will have another story to post after she leaves (if you know what I mean). So I might just be reaching a bone clinching, teeth chattering orgasm next weekend.

HAPPY JILLING, HOPE FOR ME !!