7 Decades

The story starts at boarding school. Age of 8 hearing other boys talking about some activity called tossing off and the number of times they did it. After an explanation I gave it a try and found it really lovely. Think I did 40 'orgasms' within a few days. Then one evening when passing through a dormitory, I was called over by another new guy who was in bed due to sickness and was faced with a huge cut penis which I was asked to rub. Shock at the white spurt that followed - rather horrified. This very mature guy then would ask me to join him in bog every day for a mutual rub. My very little immature penis continued to give nothing, but experience was fun. On moving to bigger school at 13 although I masturbated regularly I never had any mutual sex with a male until 78 when chatroom came into my life! I was married at 29 and have 2 children and throughout all these years up to now have always masturbated on a pretty regular basis and find it very pleasurable. With the chat room I childishly, in my view, had 3 meetings with grown ups -40s and one of 18- for b/j and masturbation in bedroom naked scenes. Enjoyable but not happy with oneself and that phase is now history - thank goodness. The worst phase was undoubtedly from 13 to about 25 when I had real religious guilt feelings about it. So unnecessary if one had found someone to discuss the matter openly, instead of which it was a deadly guilty secret.